Saturday, October 15, 2011

And we could watch a place in the sun

Ok I am in such a blah place right now. I know its a number of reasons but the main one is PMS. Yes I said it. I mean 99% of my readers are ladies so why not just put it out there. I hate that week or two out of the month where everything makes me wanna jump off a cliff. Tears are always waiting to come pouring out my eyes. Am I the only one? HMPH. When I get this way I find it hard to do much of anything.

I had a interview the other day. My 3rd since I have been out of school. They all seem to have been right around THAT time. I dont deal with rejection well and I am not use to not getting the job. I have only ever not gotten the job one time. The guy that interviewed me was a JERK so I knew it was a no go. I was dissapointed but it wasnt that big of a deal. That was over 15 years ago.

I graduated top of my class with a 3.97 and perfect attendance. Why the heck cant I get a job?!? I am just so confused and hurt. I feel like it must be me. I'm taking it personally. I know I shouldnt. Again with the "I give myself very good advice, but I rarely seldom follow it." It really is true. I guess I just don't know how to snap my heart out of it. If I thought slapping myself in the face would help, I would. Ha!

I am lucky, I am blessed, even tho I dont feel like it. I shouldnt have to remind myself that, it could be worse. I could be batteling cancer or a loss of a loved one. Heartache knows everyone. So snap out of it! Right?!

Right. I have friends who are super awesome, family that I adore and adores me back. My soulmate. Who could ask for anything more?! With that being said I am going to TRY not to let this, financial bull s%^& bring me down. I am going to assume that there is something better out there. Eventually it will come my way. IF it never does, well at least I lived my life happy and not worrying about all the crap I cant change. Life is SHORT. Wow feel like I have had this talk before. (wink)I guess sometimes we need reminding. I am not perfect. Havent I mentioned that?

Ok so on to the small stuff. My son Rowan walked out on the porch where my hubby and I were standing. He looked up at said "look mom a heart!" I looked up and there it was. Ran in and grabbed my camera.
I love this picture. Now I have a story to and a page to go with it.

It reminds me how kids can enjoy and appreciate small things that us adults miss.



Unknown said...

Wish I could give you a big smooch right now (on the cheek so please don't pucker up!!!) and tell you you are amazing.
That photo is also amazing
That layout is equally amazing.

Michelle Hernandez said...

This is so beautiful!!! Great color combo as always- I love how you always manage to fit so much detail in your pages without having it look the least bit messy or cluttered- that's TALENT!
I know how you feel right now- I'm not even getting interview calls at this point- I know it's not my resume but the fact that I stayed out of the field for 2 years to raise my daughter- which really STINKS- this economy is terrible so I am right there with you- if that helps at all. :)

Gina Lideros said...

hey sweets, I hope things start looking up for you. You and your family are in my thoughts. This is a great layout, I love how you scrapped that awesome cloud picture. There is a song by Andy Grammer called Keep your head up where he sings "only rainbows after rain. The sun will always come again...."
I love that song, and it is so true. You will get your rainbow soon :)

Fauve Design said...

Great colors and fabulous picture girl!Miss u